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Saturday, February 05, 2005 

Yesterday, the world ended.

Tears trickled down my wounded facade. The faint glow of water, so detached and out of place, spun a silky web that thawed against the evening heat. So abundant was emptiness right now. The infection had spread. It had gone too far…

For nights and days, I had encaged myself inside this labyrinth. Here, solutions were oblivious and existence challenged. Purpose is for the weak, for those who are blind and stubborn. I am my own entity.

My views on individualism have changed in the past years. Now, I walk the streets as a self-professed capitalist. There is no order in my world, only mess. Well-placed and organised mess is an impression of (self) interest. Creation is only an excuse for modification.

Minds can be so disproportionate and biased. Had I played myself in chess, I would have found myself in the position of stalemate. Lost in the constraints I set myself. Endangerment. Work seemed so meaningless. Procrastination is the only alternative.

I have grown old. Like the withered strokes of oil-based paint on canvas weathered by the intensities of nature, I am fading. The colours have been siphoned by a harsh shade of reality. They are trapped in the deeply etched trenches on my cracked skin.

The touch of air sucked dried the sublime salt on my cheek, and I was left to wonder. Where do I go from now?

Judgement will pass. Philosophy will grow. But I will always remain mortal. Death is inevitabably necessary. The world had not died yet… it had simply ended.

Fine.

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Locked for re-birth. The cycle had completed its revolution. Life is about to begin… even if it was for a second time.

Full of lies. Full of fear. Darkness had never seen such light.

IPPY